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i feel weird.

not that i'm weird but i just have this odd feeling lately. like my whole world's upside down again and i don't know why. i should be happy. work's great the northlight students are actually super warm and friendly. tuition's paying well. i finally have time to do things i love like reading and watching movies. my driving's improving (finally). i have frequent meetings with the ppl i love. i'm closer to God than i ever have been. going to genting on monday with dibomb. followup and helping out at church soon. yet i feel kinda... weird. i got my acceptance letter from nus today (they are seriously damn fast) and i should have felt happy and relieved but i just went "oh shit". i think i really just need to go away and rethink my life. won't somebody just take me away?

the sweetness of freedom

i finally got the guts to quit my job. haha. byebye jtc. it was an experience la. nice colleagues and amazing lunch times with joo qing and angie. but ohwell. gotta get rid of the old to make room for the new! and God has been good to us cos the day we quit, we got another job offer thanks to carolyn! thanks dear. so from monday onwards, joo and i are still colleagues at mediacorp's singapore media academy haha. helping out with video production courses at northlight!

mummy's 60th was last sunday but my dad and bro went to malacca so we had the surprise party on friday instead. mummy didn't suspect a thing! we called up our entire family and treated them to buffet at holiday inn. just our luck too! there was this really amazing band playing and we got to dian ge!

nice nice watch from dad bro and i!

awww!

mummy!

the four of us (:

daddy even sang for mummy hahaha. romantic. kinda. haha.

celebrated ting's bday at ice^3! it was our vintage/retro day! skippy brought her really cool card game, family business!

ordered a specialised sundae for ting with a really really long message!

tada!

birthday girl!

yumm!

ice cream!

our last day at JTC! me at my work desk!

joo at her work desk. which is just beside mine actually haha.

florence and i!

fang chyi and i!

yuet meng and i!

ellen and i!

joo and i!

us 4 (:

and then... PPG march outing at bugis! went to hip diners USA and had a really funny waiter, sunny and a cool named waiter, lovell. hahaha.

we actually had to ask someone in the mrt to help us take a pic cos we forgot to take it at the hip diner place haha.

because everything's just a battle isn't it
a struggle between what you want and what society calls for
who you want to be and what you really are inside
a fight between holding on and giving up
giving in and letting go

waiting to live

i'm totally blogging at work but i don't really care haha. i just finished the book "requiem for a dream" and it's constantly haunting me. it's a book about addiction in its many forms. not just drugs but addiction to dreams, self-deception and love. it tells about the downward spiral of the 4 main characters and i tell you, it is heartwrenching. physically heartwrenching. it's so hard to read but equally hard to put it down. joo and i are gonna watch the movie on thurs when we take leave haha. so yepp. one thing i've taken from this book is that we shouldn't wait to live, meanwhile allowing ourselves to be empty and feed off instant pleasures. and that we have much good all around us, it's all up to us whether we see it or not. no one is truly poor. if you think you are, you'll just be a hungry soul. that's what i was for a long time. but it's going to be different from now on. thank you God.

Proverbs 27:7 “A satisfied soul loathes the honeycomb, but to a hungry soul every bitter thing is sweet.”